I've changed my mind about 6 million times with how I want to participate in the Blog/Social Media space. As a marketer, I love this stuff, but I think what I struggle with is the big question of -- what about me is actually interesting to other people?
My personality is one that is extremely self critical. If I'm going to do something, I want to do it really well. And if it doesn't pan out the way I saw it going, I want to bail because I fear failure. I beat myself up and keep telling myself the following:
- I'm not putting out high enough quality content
- I don't have enough followers
- I don't have enough engagement
- My story isn't that interesting
- Who even cares about what I have to say?
The more I see this pattern happening in my brain when it comes to my social media presence, the more I consider the idea of bailing on all of it entirely. But that idea also makes me sad because I do like it.
I'm not usually the type of person who cares a ton about what other people think about me, but I do care a lot about success and competition, and in the blogosphere, that means you have to care about what people think. Success is in the numbers, right? Meh.
I've come to a point where I'm really questioning all of this. Am I interesting enough for anyone to pay attention? Or am I just noise? Do I even care about what I'm saying?
I begin to de-value myself. And think of myself as lesser than the beautiful model-looking women on Instagram who live in beautifully manicured homes and whose husbands have no gripe with following them around all day with a DSLR getting photos for social media. That's not my life, so do I not belong here?
I started blogging because I wanted a creative outlet and because my handwriting comes out far too slow for my brain to be able to journal without getting really frustrated. I like fast-paced things.
Is being "normal" not enough? Is being "normal" a bad thing? Is there value to the story of a "normal" person with a non-glamorous lifestyle?
I'd like to think so!
Yeah, sure, we all love seeing photos of Fixer Upper-quality homes on Pinterest. We're inspired by the athletes who break 2:40 marathons, and we love pretending like one day we could be the mom whose hair always looks perfect with her 2-foot-long hair extensions, but is that real for most of us? Not really.
I think the human experience is interesting and valuable regardless of how photogenic or record-breaking it is.